Long time no write...

I think I'm back.. I don't really know..

I've just got home from afterwork.. half a pint I drank.. then I go home by car.. I just started drinking, not just for tonight... hehe.. haha.. I'm not joking.. I'm going to!! So I'll only drunk write here.. ok!
Truyth will be written here allways.. hehe.. I can lie to anyone.. almost. So you think Iäll write alot here.. I think yuo right!!

Bad news...

Two days ago one of my best friends at work told me he's going to quit. I'm honestly happy for his sake. But for me.. what was looking brighter for everyday has started to darken again. Mixed feelings of happyness and anger, looking into the dark times to come. Fuck, I need a new job too! Again I'm a passenger in my own life, afraid of making change... There's a hint of a brighter future ahead but now it's tainted by feelings of an upcomming loss.

Times for changes

I've banged my head to the wall, I've screamed, I've hurt people. It's time to find myself again, find that nice man that loves his work and his life.
So I say good bye I hope I'll never find myself writing here again.
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Poo

I just got back from lunch, my office smells like poo, it smells like someone used my office instead of the toilet. Got to open the window.. funny.. now its to cold in here.
I better use the bathroom next time... FUCK!

Loosing it!

Yup I've been loosing "fat" for the last 8weeks.. ~7,5kg. So how do I do it? Its pretty simple.. I don't eat lunch any more. So thats one of many reasons for my office rage. Was that a weekend that just passed? So some say, I disagree.
I need something new!

Turnaround

Things has changed this week. Work is not as unpleasant as home, so it's a horrible friday. I need something.. to do, to drink.. I need to be alone or else..
I have to let out the office anger. But how? When smashing things doesn't work any more. *Hmmm. Maby scream, listen to loud music and smash some stuff? Gah! It will be a mess.
I'm lost..

Great!!

I'm happy! Alot of shit is just gone.. wonder were it did go? Did I work it off? Nooo.. freakin odd... I've just got used to the new brand of coffee, my complaints was also heard so it will be changed back to the brand I like.
Yes! All the ladies adore me here, they are all mine!!! MWHAhahaaaa.. if I was a girl I'd feel like a piece of meat, but hey, I'm not a girl.
Lets run into that wall again!!!